hello everyone yup i know its been a while may since ive last posted or seen anyones blogs but it has been quite a 2010 so far i can tell you loads have happened and dont know where to start to be honest, but ill have a go and see where this post will take me
this year has been quite a minefield ive gone thorugh depression stress and many sleepless nights and i had a bit of a mad weekend which i nearly ended everything, but lucky for me i saw sence and came back home to face the music and sort my problems out
think the depression has been with me a long time but without realizing i was depressed in one way the sleepless nights have been with me for 3 years but been a major part of my life for the last 12 months and everything came to a head a couple of weeks ago when i nearly ended everything by wanting to drive off the white cliffs of dover but thankfully i saw sence and still here a lot happyer but still got some way to go before iam 100% happy with things
the last 6 months i was noticing i was in trouble when i just had no energy or nothing work was becoming hard to deal with and i was managing on 3 maybe 4 hours broken sleep anight then the last 2 months hardly sleeping at all, it was quite horrible realy but now i can see light at the end of the tunnel and things are a lot better than they were 3 weeks ago
theres been a few changes in my life but all for the good house moving a little change of life style but on the whole iam a lot better and iam even sleeping properly which ive not done for a long time i feel almost human again black bags under my eyes are almost gone energy levels are up and i can deal with my job which iam enjoying once again
i will explane more on my feelings in upcomming posts but for now i think this will do for what 2010 has been like and i will come to visit blogs very soon
this year has been quite a minefield ive gone thorugh depression stress and many sleepless nights and i had a bit of a mad weekend which i nearly ended everything, but lucky for me i saw sence and came back home to face the music and sort my problems out
think the depression has been with me a long time but without realizing i was depressed in one way the sleepless nights have been with me for 3 years but been a major part of my life for the last 12 months and everything came to a head a couple of weeks ago when i nearly ended everything by wanting to drive off the white cliffs of dover but thankfully i saw sence and still here a lot happyer but still got some way to go before iam 100% happy with things
the last 6 months i was noticing i was in trouble when i just had no energy or nothing work was becoming hard to deal with and i was managing on 3 maybe 4 hours broken sleep anight then the last 2 months hardly sleeping at all, it was quite horrible realy but now i can see light at the end of the tunnel and things are a lot better than they were 3 weeks ago
theres been a few changes in my life but all for the good house moving a little change of life style but on the whole iam a lot better and iam even sleeping properly which ive not done for a long time i feel almost human again black bags under my eyes are almost gone energy levels are up and i can deal with my job which iam enjoying once again
i will explane more on my feelings in upcomming posts but for now i think this will do for what 2010 has been like and i will come to visit blogs very soon
