light at the end of the tunnel

last few weeks have seen me not doing much at all not even done much blogging either just not seemed to of got round to it, but in the 1st time in ages iam stright with my money this month when i get payed will be the 1st time ive not owed anyone apart form my dad and once ive payed him his monthly bit all my wage will be mine for once,

its such a good feeling that iam not going to have to pay anyone anything no more bank charges nothing looking forward to doing a bit of crimbo shopping and not have to worry about if iam going to have enough to last me till the end of the month things will still be a bit tight but far better off than i once was, these last couple of months have been a bit rubbish but least iam not worrying about debts as such now and with my december wage ill be even better off and have a proper crimbo for a change, to think

one of the other things ive been dealign with is my drinking iam doing okayish with that last couple of months ive only been going out once twice a week and not realy got drunk and iam finding when i do go out for a pint i enjoy it more as iam not goign out regurly on a certain night, but last night i did go out for a pint and felt rough as fuck this morning only had 4 pints iam happy with my drinking at the moment still thinking of totaly packing up bit iam going to see what happens but for now things are looking quite good

dealing with my drinking

one of the things over the last few weeks is cut my drinking down i dont feel i have a major problem as such but i feel i need to do something about it, i dont wake up every morning feeling to get pissed or do i go home thinking i oh boy i need a beer it more than when i do go out for a drink these days i can get through a few,

and when i do go through a few beers i feel like iam another person and not in control of myself, iam not bothered to a certain degree what i do or say to anyone but in the same time iam not totaly lost all my common sence as i know what iam doing and i know that i can get home without crawling on my knees or puking up every moment

iam not realy sure what iam gong to do either totaly stop or cut down even more these last few weeks ive not realy touched beer think the last 3 weeks ive been out to the pub 3 times and thats not like me i can easily go out twice a week no problem, but i have enjoyed stopping in and not getting drunk and doing daft things,

ive caught up on loads of telly and started to watch new programs some times over the last few weeks come 9pm ive been fighting to weather to go out or not fought the feeling than half an hour later the urge to go out has gone and just carryed on watchign was i was on telly, and just enjoyed the one can of beer

only time will tell what i decied to do with my drinking

goose fair and peechykeen formaly big wok

with it being goose fair i did go this year as one ive not been for at least 5 years and with me havign a ladyfriend to take we both decied to go and i went on a couple of rides, yes me going on a couple of rides 2 i enjoyed but after the 2nd i was feeling delicate my ladyfirend asked me to go on the waltzers with her but i wasnt to sure but me being me i went on with her but i didnt enjoy it one bit and i was even more delicate afterwards,

the fair is not the same as it once was you need a mortage to go there realy witih rides costing 2quid upto 10 quid a pop each even hook a duck was 3 quid all the stalls were mainly food stalls its a wonder they could all compete with the amount there was but them must make a quid or 2 as they wouldnt of been there, its much smaller than in previous years and a burger at 3 quid a pop i didnt bother having one but saying that it might of been better than the food at the resturant we went to before the fair

we went to this resturante called peachykeen once called big wok when it was big wok it just sold chineese food and it was great help yourself buffet the amount of times i went in i never had a bad meal but in august this year it closed down saying it was being refubished, its now reopened as one of these resturants which dose a bit of all sorts of food, me myself when they do this kind of thing they never realy work

there is a place in town called red hot which dose the same thing but something isnt right about it, for example you have roast beef and yorkshire puds but nothing to go with it, its all a bit missmatched same with this peechykeen place they have a little bit of chinesse italian and other food but they mainly offer curry,

all well and good but the singage wasnt that good i didnt realy know if the currys on offer were hot mild or very hot there were lots of sauces in jars but i didnt know what they were cos again no signage, the puddings were stored next to the front window on a table we asked one of the waiters what this liquid was and he said its supposed to be jelly i looked at my ladyfriend and both looked with a okay look, i just wasnt inpressed but ill give it anothe go when they have been opened a bit and if still not any good ill not go no more

shame they changed as there was nothing wrong with big wok as the food was good hot and loads of choice of chineese food puddings were in a cooler and cold and i think peechykeen will waste a lot of the puddings as they are not cold, time will just tell if peechykeen will be a sucsess or not

not blogging much

well ive not been doing very well with this blogging larky ive had all good intensions of writing least a couple of times a week, but just not done so, readers have seen ive made this blog private ill invite you if you want no problem as with this blog iam goign to be writeing more about my private life and work and i dont realy want every tom dick and harry to read but i feel i want to write about it

since my mad weekend lots have happened and changed ive moved back to my parents which i didnt want to do but it was the best thing to do for the time being, and iam settling down there okay, work is going okay but at times i think is it all worth it, it might be easyer to get the sack claim every benifit i can and get some girl pregnet and claim even more benifits but then with me working iam a little more better off or will be by crimbo when my finances a bit better off,

one of the things iam having to deal with is my drinking i think i might have a bit of a problem but not totaly sure, iam not waking up wanting a drink every moring to get me going or anything and i can last a while without having a beer but when i do i go a bit mad and feel like iam going out of controll,

as iam normaly a shy quiet person normaly but when i go for a beer and i seem like when ive had a couple i start losing controll i get brave and dont care what i say or do, and when iam like that it could be more dangerous so for the time being iam not going to drink beer while out but have a can or 2 in the house like i did last night i enjoyed having a beer last night but i didnt get wasted,

only time will tell with the drinking, but one thing my motivation is back up and feel like i want to do things once again iam enjoying my cycling, and i want to start running once again, dealign with depression ive not realy done much about it to be honest i feel i can handle it at the moment without needing to go and talk to anyone but again ill see how that goes but one thing is ill not use drink to deal with it no more

as the other evening i felt a bit down and could of quite easyily gone to get drunk but after half an hour of fighting the feeling of needing to go out for a drink i just ended up on the xbox and didnt have a beer at all so time will see,

depression stress and not sleeping what a 2010 its been

hello everyone yup i know its been a while may since ive last posted or seen anyones blogs but it has been quite a 2010 so far i can tell you loads have happened and dont know where to start to be honest, but ill have a go and see where this post will take me

this year has been quite a minefield ive gone thorugh depression stress and many sleepless nights and i had a bit of a mad weekend which i nearly ended everything, but lucky for me i saw sence and came back home to face the music and sort my problems out

think the depression has been with me a long time but without realizing i was depressed in one way the sleepless nights have been with me for 3 years but been a major part of my life for the last 12 months and everything came to a head a couple of weeks ago when i nearly ended everything by wanting to drive off the white cliffs of dover but thankfully i saw sence and still here a lot happyer but still got some way to go before iam 100% happy with things

the last 6 months i was noticing i was in trouble when i just had no energy or nothing work was becoming hard to deal with and i was managing on 3 maybe 4 hours broken sleep anight then the last 2 months hardly sleeping at all, it was quite horrible realy but now i can see light at the end of the tunnel and things are a lot better than they were 3 weeks ago

theres been a few changes in my life but all for the good house moving a little change of life style but on the whole iam a lot better and iam even sleeping properly which ive not done for a long time i feel almost human again black bags under my eyes are almost gone energy levels are up and i can deal with my job which iam enjoying once again

i will explane more on my feelings in upcomming posts but for now i think this will do for what 2010 has been like and i will come to visit blogs very soon

more time

over the last few weeks iam seem to be having more time to myself i dont know why all of sudden iam feeling quite normal life is still busy but iam making time for myself and do things i want, iam cracking on with sorting my music out and making a couple of playlists up ive caught up on loads of films and telly shows one show ive been watching again is xfiles

iam realy enjoying watching the xfiles i got upto season 3 when bbc2 1st showed them years ago when i was around 16 and gillian anderson who played scully was sexy as hell and now she is quite a few years older she is still sexy one of the other shows at that time i used to watch was sliders it was about a guy who could travel to alternate universes it was qutie a good show i managed season 3 and again i lost track but during the week i ordered them on dvd boxset for around 70 quid not bad i think for the whole series as when they 1st came out on video and dvd they were around 40 quid a season

ive not had much time for blogging still but thats one thing iam going to start regular even tho ive not blogged myself i do read my friends blogs and found for some reason the comments ive made are not showing for some reason maybe its me not doing something right but i will pop round to fellow friends blogs and say hi, and dinners iam down your way soon again so will pop for a beer,

fitness motivation and sleeping

what a lovely moning it is today and once again ill be on my bike later iam going for a longer cycle to work today as part of my peperations for my cycling holiday iam thinking of doing next year, later this year i would like to attempt to cycle to skeggy which i think i could do no problem in another 2 months time,

iam thinking at this moment of my fitness it would take me around 11 hours as its 80 odd miles away that would make me a average of 10 miles an hour which i could easyily do, last week i cycled 70 miles and that was just to and from work and into town once and twice as iam using my bike a lot more for short journys and when i get more fitter ill cycle farther a field one of the reasons iam doing this cycling is as work is going to start to charge me 350 pounds a year to park my car at work and no way iam not paying that much to park at work when iam not even guarateed a parking space,

ive been on and off cycling to work for the last year now and i can cycle 10 mins quicker than drive to work main reason of me cycling quicker than driving is of the build up of traffic through town they sometimes average 10 miles an hour and i can be anything upto 20 mph so do the sums lol but iam getting fitter and even the cycle home isnt such a chore now as iam getting up carlton hill more hopefully in a nother couple of weeks ill be albe to cycle up all of carlton road as its a big long hill

also this last month my sleeping has seemed to of sorted its self out ive been sleeping quite good not waking up 3 or more times a night and averaging more than 5 hours this weekend i had 20 odd hours stright sleep 10 on sat and 10 on sunday and i think thats helping me as well, so all good at the moment but just wish may will be nicer money wise as like i mentioned in a other post april has been a right bitch,

my drinking has almost become non existent this month i can count the amount of beer ive had on my fingers as ive hardly had anything i have been going to the local to see friends but ive only had a couple of soft drinks then at the end of the eve ive just had 1 beer and ive been feeling loads better my friends find it strange not to see me drink but iam happy not to drink loads of beer and feel rough next morning,

i did think about totaly stopping drinking earlyer in the year but i do like a beer every so often and i thought if i limit my drinking down i can still enjoy a beer without drinking a load which ive been doing the last coupe of months like last night i got home from work and went on call of duty and just had 1 can and realy enjoyed it

anyway enough of me going on its a nice morning and iam off for a cycle before work have a goodun and stay safe

music

as long as i can remember ive always been into my music my fav music is rock but will listen to anything and even a little bit of country and western for a long time i used to use tape and record then after one to many of my fav tapes got chewed up i went on to cd

i was starting to get a few cd's built up and was runing out of room, at this point i was using my pc to listen to my music i download my music and put it on my large hard drive and upload the playist on my winamp player and thats how i play my music for the last couple of years but iam getting so much music and running out of space on my hard drive and the time it takes to sort on the pc iam thinking of putting my music back on to cd once again

but on my pc i have almost whole collections of albums so in some case's like areosmith i have more than 10 albums iam not sure how far to go with putting my music back on to cd, do i make one or 2 cd's of each group or make my own cd's and have what music i want on the cd so i can have 18 songs on one cd of different artists iam not sure yet i might even continue to keep and play my music from the pc and just get another hard drive as they are quite cheap now

as daft as it sounds if i buy 5 cd's that will pay for a 500gig hard drive so iam going to have a think of what to do as ive got every now thats whati call music album on my pc and thats 70 odd albums just think of that lot alone on cd but i do have the room to keep cd's so not a problem. but with the amount of music i have on my pc ill soon have a couple of hundred albums along side my 200 albums i already have displayed on my cd units i have down one side of a wall

anyroad i best get on and its turning nice out there

time

well what a month this has been so far very hard on me money wise as its just been all pay out so not had much fun this month but i'd rather go through the month like this then go into debt unlike i have done in the past but hey its payday in a couple of days time and hopefully nothing else will go wrong which ill have to pay out for

ive spent 4o0 quid on my car this month ive had to tax and mot my car which came to 300 then a new key for my car so quite a drain on my wage, i suppose i could of waited a bit longer for my car key but ive been putting up with it for a year now and its starting to be a pain as when i need to open my boot its a pain in the arse routine its not a simple operation of just putting your key in thr drivers side door and all the other doors and boot open as well so i got a new key it will now be just a case of press a button on my key and everything opens nice and easy

also this month ive had mega computer problems think ive found whats causing my computer to play up but i think i do need a new pc, as mine is 5 years old now and its had a hard life the poor thing iam thinking of a mac but they are quite expensive so iam still deciding what to do about that and also thats why ive not been in blog land much but i will make a point of coming and visiting you all soon

think the reason why ive not had much time this month is of my addiction to call of duty 4 modern warfare ive dont the story line game and now iam online with my xbox iam getting into the online mulitplayer games and iam so addicted to it, iam builing my experience points and now iam a sargent yeah which means i can customize my weapons and make them a bit better, the other eve i went on for 10 minuets the next it was midnight i thought opps i best get to bed

also this month ive not been very well and needed a week of sick from work which ive not done for a long time its just a day or 2 but i was realy bad i had a bad chest infection and asthma problems plus i was fighting a flu bug off which didnt help i had it for 2 weeks one min i was starting to feel better so i kept coming to work the next i was rough as hell it got to a point where i just needed time off so for the week while i was off sice i just slepted and boy did i sleep

i think i was just rundown think my eating pattern didnt help either but now iam all back to normal i dont sound like a 80 year old man or feel like one and ive got a good eating pattern sorted out and it seems to be working quite nicely so ive had quite a month but on the whole 2010 is going much better than 2009 did and ive even had a couple of days out so its not all to bad

i will be posting more during the day as ive got more to write and say have a goodun and stay safe

back to work

well iam back to work today after 2 weeks off work and its gone quite quick the 1st week i was off work sick and i was quite bad with asthma and some flu bug i caught but a week in bed sleeping for england and 40 quid at the chemist for various drugs i was back to my oldself last week was busy

i did lots of painting and work in the garden and spent a bit of time on the xbox i was getting quite hooked on call of duty modern warfare the online gaming is great the 1st week while i was off i spent a whole day on it sad i know but way addictive, i got everything done i wanted and iam readyish to go back to work this afternoon

also my car is in for its mot today iam sure nothing big needs doing if anything a break pipe might need changing like last time, ive not bothered with a service this year as i dont think ive done the huge mileage like i normaly do these last 12 months think my biggest miles per month ive done is 400 this month ive only done 300 but next year ill have a service tho as i think iam going to be doing some mileage now the nice weather is getting better

anyway i best get meself a wash and get off to work stay safe out there as theres still madduns around

skeggy

me and my girlfriend went out for the day yesterday and went to skeggy for the day yeah some of you might say its rough and rubbish but i like going there got a nice clean beach and you can walk for miles on it as well, which we did it was just nice to be on the beach and having some sea air

the journey wasnt to bad you had some twunts who insisted driving so slow they held up every body else but apart from that it was a painless journey, we went into one cafe for a cuppa tea which was very expesnive for a cuppa tea and scone with a bit of jam and butter it was going to cost 3.50 each, but joann knew of a place which we went to later in the afternoon if you dont mind a bit of church music there is a place near eptions chippy youcan have a cuppa and a cake for 99p and that was a bluddy good bargin we both had a cuppa and scone with a bit of jam and butter for 99p each they were home made scones as well i even gave a 50p tip in the jar as i was so inpressed

you do have to shop around in skeggy for the bargins tho as the prices can change quite a bit even for fish and chips went to that cafe which was expensive and it was nearly 7 quid but a place near the car park fish chips and peas were 4 quid and it was bluddy nice as well, on the whole had a good day out made a change to get away from nottingham to be honest

bank holiday madness backend of winter

well here is another bank holiday easter infact normaly when i comes to bank holidays i dont bother going anywhere as on the roads its chaos they blocked up as everyone wants to get out and about and there also blocked or closed by numptys crashing into each other or something or the other,

this bank holiday iam staying put doing a couple of jobs around the house get me veg plot ready and have a bit of a rest ill be goign to help me dad replace some of his windows and watch plently of telly with some xbox time as well, the last bank holiday i went away somewhere i got my car wrote off in quite a major accident that will be another story for another time

one thing which ive found intresting are the storys about how crap this weekend is going to be weather wise yeah yeah we have rain high winds and maybe a little bit of snow all i can say is hey people it is the back end of winter and yeah there is still a bit of bad weather still to come even tho we are now in spring but only just in spring so yeah for the next week or so we will see some wintery weather happening just live with if

there will be other bank holidays to go away with and on monday i will be venturing out but ill not have to deal with the other nutters as when iam setting off on monday morning most people will have gotten to there destination or just not bothering iam only going to skeggy with the girlfriend for the day but be nice to get away be a hour and a half drive and we'll be at the seaside weather permitting

anyway iam off to bed as its calling me big tme its all ive seem to of done this week while ive been off work sick but ive got next week off as holiday from work fingers crossed iam all fit and back to full steam as these last two weeks have been horrid but i think iam over the worse of it now, if your out and about this weekend stay safe out there as its going to be chaos

pleased march is over with

well iam pleased march is almost over with i can tell you its seemed a long hard slog this month i know we have had a busy time at work with lots of events going on but that has been good being busy least work has been chalenging in that way

but ive been down in the dumps with my asthma and fighting some bug for the last couple of weeks which has made me feel like a 80 year old man at times but this last week its took its toll and iam having some bed rest as iam just not getting any better most of the weekend and yesterday was spent at home hardly doing anything apart from sleep and getting up for a drink now and again,

my nose is so red its unreal my mum said i must not be well as i poped round to my parents place for some sunday dinner and after a few mouth fulls i couldnt eat much more shame as it was a realy nice dinner but hey oh iam eating a little more now, ive not had a beer for nearly 2 weeks as just not been in the mood for one see how i go over the weekend if i still not in the mood for a beer it might be the perfect time to give it up hey

one thing ive done it caught up on one of my old fav past times which is watch a film which i used to to more than once a week but just dont seem to have chance these days but sunday iwatched 4 in one day ive got a couple i want to watch today so one thing on this blog ill try and do is a movie review,

righty now the weather has picked up a little better time to go and pick up me drugs the docs gave me yesterday from the chemists have a goodun and stay safe

football

well what a year of footballing we have had i for one have enjoyed this years season very much, for 1 it has been the tightest for points and places in the league tables for a long time and teams who i thoght wouldnt do so well are on top form fighting for promotion good on them and about time,

i thoght newcastle united would of been middle of the champions table after dropping from the premier league last year but good on them they are top of the champions league forest well iam not going to much into forest but to say they making hard work of things like normal but they have done well again after last season i was going to be happy with them being in the middle of the table and next season hoping for a over long due return to the premier league but fingers crosed they still might do it this year

notts county who i have been following quite a bit this year have done great to say a month ago they were ready to go bust and are now sitting second in league 2 and very high contenders for going to league 1 which they havnt been in league 1 for a long long time,

the premier league has been good to watch the top 6 teams have all been swapping places like mad but not i think its all but settled apart from chelsea man utd and arsenal who can all still calim stop stop and be this years champions i wouldnt like to put any money on who will be champions but all those 3 could be and i think will be till the very last game

i would like to see arsenal win this years top spot in this years premier league as they do deserve there crown again been a little over due for them to win something, ive also been suprised in how well spurs have done to say last season they were drop out contenders for the championship league and harry redknapp has done a great job in turning those players around iam going to be following spurs next season as will be very intresting to see what they do

but it still amazes me how the press reports about football as halfway through the season they were wiping teams chances of any hope or climbing the table just like arsenal and now look at arsenal they could be champions

anyway enough of me going on stay safe all as theres still madduns around

beer with dinners

yesterday saw me meeting a blog mate who ive known for a while now been reading his blog and ended up having a beer with him last nite, and even tho ive never met him i kinda knew all about him throuhg reading his blog and it was just like meeting one of my mates at the local on a friday night,

we got on okay had a few laughs i apeared on his radio show and i cant remember why dinners but how did a bacon sandwich come into the convo on your show, as ive just seen the shout box from last night and cant remember much about the last hour, but all in all a good evening and will have to do it again

but this morning i was a bit worse for wear i couldnt even eat my bacon sandwich which dinners did for me, i was even a bit sick and it was yellow ive never had yellow sick before iam sure dinners was giving me his poloish vodka or very large mesures of his normal vodka but iam back to normal now i did have a bacon cob on the way home after i was sick once again and a little old lady saw me hanging out of my car in the services car park asking if i was okay and needed anything and she got me a bottle of water, i even had a sleep for a hour as i was so bad but i slepted like a log last ngiht tho as soon as my head hit the pillow i was out like a light

and i think it will be a early night tonight as well as iam buggered anyway iam off to laze on the sofa and it was realy good meeting you dinners and your more than welcome up nottingham anytime

think iam getting there

well the last few days ive been off work feeling quite ill i must of eaten something wednesday as all day thursday i was farting like a trouper then it went one step thurther i wont go into details but its been a pain as i had a lot i wanted to do this weekend but hey oh ive got next week in the afternoons to do my jobs as iam working mornings

next weekend ill be poping down to see dinners iam quite looking forward to it as we have read each others bloger for a while now and seems a intresting chap should take me 2 hours to get down to where he is if traffic is okay should be a laugh, and deffo a curry involved somewhere as iam no more eatng kebabs as i think that what has made me a little ill over the last couple of days

ill go for a walk later as ive not left the house since wednesday evening and iam getting a bit fed up now of being house bound it would of been easyer if i had planned for a weekend at home least i could of eat something more than bluddy soup but this evening iam going to try something a bit more think ill go for a bit of fish and new spuds and peas see how i go with that

righty enough of me moaning iam going to get dressed as yeah its half 3 and iam still sitting in my dressing gown i know what a lazy sod iam, have a goodun

waste of time

dont you hate it when people let you down and you have to rearange all your plans, i was ment to of been going away for the weekend in a couple of weeks time but now iam going to have to rearange my plans to go down another time now, andmy friend could of told me to cancel my plans a couple of weeks ago which made me madder but i suppose ill see everyone in the south east of the country a other time,

other news i think now iam going for a day out next weekend tothe coast i need some sea air not been anywhere as such this year for a day out as the weather hasnt realy been good, ill probly just go to skeggy you may laugh but i like it have me fish and chips and a coupel of beers and enjoy some qulity time to meself, 2010 is going quite well no major dramas things with the girlfreind is going realy well been 6 months now and iam seeing how the next 6 months go, no car problems i dont want any either as last year was a bit of a bitch regarding my car but everything is sorted so i should have a few thousand miles use out of it now before anything realy major needs doing

this weekend ill wash and polish my car as it looks like its been rallying and ill put my amp and speakers in to the car get some good sound coming from it, i used to have me loud speakers and amp in my old car but when i smashed it up i didnt put them in my new car just didnt get round to it, but as ive go a whole weekend off this weekend ill have a go as its not a 10 minuet job but when its done should sound quite good

anyway i best get dressed and get something done as time is cracking on

bullying

one of the storys in the news ive been following a little bit is the bullying row at downing stree, and its made me smile a little at how the prime minister has a slight temper and how some of his staff has been bullyed i cant realy work out who has been doing the bullying as such as if its gordon brown or other members of staff bullying other staff but with the media how it is they make such a big deal with it,

me myself have been bullyed quite a lot thorogh my life most of it was in my childhood and teens luckily ive not had much problems with work life apart from one or 2 episodes but i have sorted the work related bullying out meself and made the other person look silly rather than use my fists like i used to,

but when i was a child the bullying was quite bad, as ive had speech and language problems i was prime target for other kids to take the piss and for years i had lots of mental tourcher at the hands of them but it idid end when i decied to take matters into my own hands, the only way it ended was when i started to fight as when i told the teachers or houseparents as i was a border at school i got beat up by the other kids as i told on them

i think i was around 13 when it all came to ahead i can remember i didnt want to go to school on the monday as i knew it would be anothe week of hell, and wasnt i right i hadnt been at school for half an hour before i got targeted in the toilets and by tea time that evening i was ringing my parents up to come to pick me up and they did,

i was still being chased around infact it was like i was being hunted the only reason i didnt get a beating was my dad and teachers found me, after a bit of talk my dad took me home andi didnt go back for a week, but during that time my dad and uncle taught me some basics of fighting

my dad was into judo at the time and my uncle was in to karate so they taught me the basics like blocking punches a couple of kicks and towards the end of the week i was fairly confident person,

so monday morning i went back to school unknowing what had happend i noticed things had happened i found out that the senior housing units at school had a mini riot nothing to bad but most of the senior lads had barracaded themselfs in the units and spent the week locked in, what caused this was that the senior lads were fed up with being treated like kids which in a way i understood as we were treated like kids

but the riot had ended smoothly and normal service had resumed, i got to school monday morning and i was hearing things of what happened while i was off, no one had come to pick on me or anything and i was quite suprised and happliy confident it was goign to be a trouble free week, but how wrong was i come morning brerak,

i was surrounded by a lot of the lads and the ringleaded was in the middle of the circle with me he was asking where i had been the last week, after words i told him not to mess with me or else and he said or else what so i launched into him with a couple of flying kicks and a chuck over my shoulder, he was totaly stunned i winded him he couldnt move i think the shock of a kid 2 years younger than him flooring him and the rest of the kids looked in amazement at me

not knowing what to do they looked at me and i looked at them and now i was super confident i was ready for anything, i said who's next 2 of his mates came for me and i managed to floor them as well with this being done the rest of the lads moved along and broke the circle and by this time the teachers had come along to see what the fuss was,

all they saw was 3 lads grovling onthe floor with the wind knocked out of them they asked if anything was wrong and we said nothing was wrong and that was that, i didnt have no more kids at school bully me we took the micky out of each other but thats was the worse of it, i was took to one side later that day by the headmaster and all he said to me was that if he ever saw me in another fight like that again there would be trouble and there wasnt realy had the odd scrapp but nothing to serious

i may post one or 2 more cases of being bullyed as theres quite a few more storys i could tell like i was almost kicked out of college for fighting and almost breaking someones leg but they can be for aother post

weather

well iam not normaly one for moaning about the wather but iam getting fed up with this winter and the very sudden changes in the weather we having at the moment, like today i was goign to cycle to work got myself ready for work and just about to go out the house and it chucked it down, do i drove in to work but 10 mins after the rain started it stopped but i suppose it is winter after all

i think also the problem is the last few years we have had very mild winters and i think people have forgotten winter is all about the cold snow ice and rainand this winter has been the 1st proper winter this country has seen for quite a long time, this time last year i had quite a few days out but this year ive not had one, but if the weather is okay ill be going to skeg i think for the day as iam ready for a day out as ive not been anywhere for ages

and while iam in skeg iam sure to have some fish and chips and if the sun is shining ill have them to take out and sit out on the beach, so come on weather be nice and no one sing or do there rain dance or ill not be a happy chappy

f1

iam looking forward to this years formular 1 season very much they have had a few rule changes as in no more refuling also the introduction of 4 new teams virgin racing, lotus f1 which i like the look of there car very much campos meta 1 and us f1 it will be intresting to see how jenson button and lewis hamilton will work out as a team i think jenson has made a big mistake in going to mclaren as with lewis being there boy wonder i think he will be pushed to one side,

i also enjoyed last years formula 1 season as it was quite equaly matched and it was 4 teams fighting for number 1 spot to nearly the end of the season but what angered me was how in the past seasons when michael schumacher kept winning the press and who ever else was involved in f1 were moaning how boring the sport was getting, last season we saw the brawn team with the 1st 6 races with jenson button taking the 1st 6 races then he started to wobble a bit as other teams were catching up andthe press were on jensons back saying he wasnt good enough, you just cant seem to win either way but iam not laying on any bets yet till the 1st race to see how the cars will cope

i think this years formula 1 will be the best for ages as a lot of teams wil be as good as each other and i dont think there will be just one team who will win all the time come on next month for the 1st race

another week out the way

well 2010 has realy gone with a bang been so busy work wise and social life has been quite busy as well this weekend iam working saturday and sunday so my next day off is goign to be next sunday i cant moan as come spring summer ill have a bit of money to go out for the day weekend, and i want to do a bit of going out this year as last year my days out started well but by end of feb kinda ended up non exstisent,

this week saw me turning 34 i dont normaly fuss about birthdays but this year a few people fussed about me which was nice i even got a cake from my girlfriend ive not had a birthday cake since i was a kid but nice all the same, wednesday as it was my birthday i went to the big wok with my girlfreind which was nice but ive got to get her back as she got it annouced over the speakers and i was given a cake with a candle on again not had any fuss like it since i was a kid but it was nice,

car touch wood seems to be running okay no problems as such since my engin was rebuilt and costing me 600 quid, but on the plus its a x reg car and now when iam crusing at 70 in 5th gear the ref counter is ticking over at around 2700 reffs so my petrol consumpion will be a bit more better, but i still need to clean the car and give it a good polish i might do that on my day off on 9th of march,

speaking of work i best get me arse into gear as me dad will be round in 15 mins to pick me up

a bit of a shock

while at the gym today i weighed myself on one of thses machines which tells you what weight you should be for your hight and age and how over weight you are, and i had a bit of a shock when i found out i was still 4 and a half stone over weight, i should be around nine and a half to 10 stones iam thinking ill never be 10 stones but my target at the moment is to get down to 13 stone and i think ill look okay

as i have already lost 2 stone in weight over the last year and a half and iam quite inpressed in how differenti look and now that i dont have man boobs, but i was still shocked to know i was still 4 and a half stone over weight but when i get down to 13 stone i think ill look quite good and about right, with the fittness it has taken a bit of a back seat of late but thats been down to me being lazy and my bad body clock, but iam making a big effort to get back to the gym and been goign back for a couple of weeks now but ive just got to make myself motivated

and for the cycling i realy need to make a effort again as i was doing realy well and again ive not bothered as of me being lazy and the weather hasnt been a help either of late but ill get back into that soon enogh, but one thing i think iam sorting out is my body clock for the last week and a half ive been getting up between half 7 and 8am most mornings which is better than half 9 and 11am, least i can get some stuff done beforei go to work, i still want to inprove on the getting up but i think it will take a bit of time tho to get my body clock totaly sorted but when i do i think the exercise will inprove

valentines day

well normaly iam not to borthered about these kind of days its just anther money making day for the shops but as its been 3 years since ive had to send a card to a girl i thoguht i'd make the effort this year as ive been seeing my girlfriend for 6 months now and its going quite well, i did mention from early feb that i wouldnt be taking her out for valentines day and she seemed okay with that,

i got her a car with 2 bunches of flower one of them was roses and the other was some colourfull flowers, i also got her a box of chocs and a bear as she likes her soft toys, i also cooked a nice dinner so was all good realy all in all had a good afternoon and evening together,

infact the whole weekend went well i got loads done which ive been putting off for ages and iam even ontop of my music collection getting it in some sort of order

bank of mum and dad

just watched this program call bank of mun and dad, its where parents go and live with there kids for a week who got themselfs into debt, this couple this evening are 26,000 quid in debt there parents go through all there paper work of what they've spent and found where they have gone wrong,

the parents are horrified in how much the debt is but the daugher andher boyfriend arent bothered in the slightest and they dont seem to want to do owt the parents say, they have a car each and paying both monthly and the dad said to the daughters boyfriend to use a bike for a week as it was a 12 minuet ride and he moaned like a kid, they both smoke 20 fags a day which costs them 200 quid a month, they have 12 credit cards between them and the daughters excuse is well if i havnt got the money i can still get it if i like it they blow 80 quid ona night out and thats not including taxis and takeaways

but as the program went on they did give there new buget a go i myself have been in debt and it isnt very nice iam out of it now but at the time it was easy to spend money you havnt got and not have to worry about it but it catches up with you if you dont pay it off right away but i know now that iam never going to get in to that situation, this program bank of mum and dad is good and intresting to see how people live and throw away money then intresting to see the follow up to see how they get on 6 months later most make it and are happy and some struggle

i just hope i never get into as bad debt as some of these as i dont think i could handle the stress as the slight debt i was in worryed me to death, but living is expsenive and hard but you just have to be sensible, at the moment my biggest expense after my rent is food living by myself is hard not to waste a lot of food, but iam getting used to using things up and even if i dont get round to using my fresh veg i make someting out of it now and it lasts a couple of more days,

thats enough of me going off time for a soak and a read have a goodun and stay safe

press

i dont know about you but iam getting sick and tired with hearing about every little thing in the press about people private lives, iam sick to death of jordan and that alex who cares i dont and the big fuss about john terry iam fed up of hearing about them

jordan fuck off your a slapper who shouldnt desverve kids your swanning around like you havnt got a care in the world while your kids are at home with nannys when there dad could be looking after them get your arse in to gear woman

and the john terry thing well yeah he did cheat got caught out now leave him be to sort things out and maybe get his captains job back as i think it would be the best thing for england maybe ferdinand might make a good captain well have to see but the press are just a arse fuck at the moment and now portsmouth manager has been caught going to a borthal who cares his wife knows about it and everyone is happy so press leave alone trying to make trouble for people

2010 going okay so far

well 2010 has gone okay so far, just dont seemto have much self time at the moment but apart from that things are going quite smoothly, work is busy i did a 17 hour day saturday iam getting as much overtime as i can at the moment try and save a little for my days and weekends away for a bit later in the year as i would like to get out and about more this year

the only thing wrong with 2010 so far is my body clock is still wanky i am waking up but i just cant seem to get out of bed, i say ill have 10 more mins then the next time i wake up its gone half 9 just seem to be wasting so much time in bed when i dont need to hopefully ill sort my body clock out before to long, i think having a buggered body clock is effecting my eating pattern a little bit as well, as i like to have my proper dinner at midday

but when i dont get up untill after half 9 somtimes i dont feel like a big dinner just a bit of breakfast and it buggers things up ill sort it sooner rather than later but on a whole 2010 is goign quite well, i think 2008/2009 are well and truely behind me

last nights trip to tescos

well i poped to tescos on the way home last night 1st time ive been back since i was refused beer last year, i was amazed in how many teenagers were larking around the main entrance getting in the way of cars and shoppers the main danger was the kids on the bikes doing stunts with no regard of anyone or thing aroung them,

as i walked towards the main entrance i saw the secruity guard trying to encruage the kids to get lost and when was entering the shop i didnt have much hope of him getting rid of the kids but when i did my shop and on my way out i was suprised to see the kids had gone and he was smiling, he quite pollitly said eveing and me in return ended up having a 5 min convo with him one of our convos was that how i couldnt do his job as i wouldnt have the patience

he said he finds it hard at times but he just bits his lip and gets on with it, and i quite admired him ina way doing at times a realy shitty job as working as a shops security guard you get loads of shitty attitude from people but then again you'll get just as many people who are okay, but i still dont think i could do that job, also there is a tescos express on top of carlton hill which is a couple of minuets walk if that from where i liveand when iam walking past in the eveing the guard there looks so board and fed up i saw him last night while driving past he looked very fed up,

think this not working in a shop supermarket came from when i was a kid my school offered me work experience and the only thing they offered us was working at the local tescos, back then i had bigger ideas of what i wanted to do my dream job was to be a camra man for somewhere like the bbc or itv, so my parents tryed to get me in to central studios but they at the time wasnt taking any work experince people on, so in the end i stopped at school doing my school work while everyone did there work experince,

my teachers wasnt to inpressed but i was adiment i wasnt going to waste 2 weeks working for nothing in a supermaket, and to this day ive not worked in a shop or supermarket i was very near before i worked at the uni but i got the offer of the uni first, if i had to of taken that job at the supermarket i would of been happy to of stacked shelvs or behind the scences but i would never ever work on the checkouts or behind any of the counters i would be sick to death of asking peoiple for there club cards or if they wanted cash back everytime someone payed by there debit card

ive always had the thinking if you wanted cashback you'll ask theperson for it rather than to be asked, oh well talking of work i best get back to some as iam doing a 16 hour shift today have a goodun and stay safe

rock and chips

i was ment to of wrote this yesterday but never got round to it but sunday evening i watched that new bbc program called rock and chips the only fools and horses prequal i wasnt goign to make any judgement on the programtill i saw it myself, and i was quite pleased to say it was very good

it was good how they introduced the current caraters of only fools and horses as teenagers and the parents and other acters i enjoyed how they broght in freddy the frog played by nicholas lyndhurst but i didnt think he looked right playing a bad guy tho, it was intresting how the show focused it on del boys mum it answered a couple of questions of the only fools and horses show, and iam so pleased the producers didnt have a audiance laughing at every little thing all on all very inpressed such a shame the bbc cant continue to produce good telly like this as once they used to all the time

have a goodun and stay safe

mad world

reading the bbc news and seen another murder has happened in nottingham in lenton abby area of nottingham if i think iam right its the 3rd murder in as many weeks in lenton and radford areas this year and one in kimberly make it the 4th its getting a little scary to be honest as you just dont know whats round the corner you might be happly walking to where ever your going and some nutter will attack you for some unknown reason or even enter your home rob it and threten you with knives or what ever, they get away and if they get caught just get a slap on the wrist and get told not to do it again,

but if you go and tackle the intruder you could find yourself underarest and facing prison, whats that all about this is a open invertaion for any robber to come and rob your house and you have to stand there and let the sods do it cos if you intervine you could find yourself being arested for tackling the robber, if i ever was in this situation and i found someone breaking into my house while i was in i would break his knee caps with some kind of wooden object and dump the fucker in some park land and see what he dose then

ill get friends to say i was with them so its just his word against mine if he dares to go to the cops or logdes a complaint about me, but it is getting a bit daft where you cant defend yourself and what dose come as selfdefence these days i dont know its a mad world and dangerous out there last time i went to town for a drink on a saturday night it wasnt very good you only need to look at someone before they were asking what the fuck was you looking at, you just dont need all this attitude

i was watching some cop thing on telly over the weekend and this cop in america had pulled up this chap and found he was carrying a gun which is totaly okay as the yanks can carry arms, just think if this country could carry arms it would be madness there would be random shootings even on the busses it would be mad if some little fucker was listening to his music like they do these days on there phones and sometimes its quite loud and someone asked him to turn it off and he wouldnt turn it down you'll be able to shoot the fucker i would just to teach him a lesson i wouldnt shoot to kill but pop one or 2 in the knee cap give them a bit of pain for a few months

i dont know it will take a lot to sort the problems out in the once great nation but for now ill just plod along and keep meself safe

almost end of the 1st month of 2010

well the 1st month of the new year is almost over and done with and i must say its gone okay, been a long one and will be well ready for payday next week as ive had to tighten my budget this month but fingers crossed if nothing else unexpected crops up ill be okay through feburary,

the changes ive made to my lifestyle are coming on okay the eating and fitness are coming on quite nicely now its just a case of keepign it up and if i do ill have no problems the drinking situation iam goign for a whole ban for a while i think as ive cut right down this month ive only drank 3 itmes and on each of those times i hadnt drank a lot around 5 pints but next morning i just felt crap so theres 2 things i can do about this eiher start drinking regularly again to get used to the volume of beer i was used to drink or quite altogether for a while and iam goign to stop for a while as iam quite happy enough without the need for beer

i was thinking about the whole packing up beer before crimbo but i thoguht i'd try to cut down but its not doing anything for me i was just going for a beer on friday evening but when i do go for a drink i like a drink not just one or 2 pints but the only next time i will have a beer for the time being is when dinners comes up which iam quite looking forward to, but everything else is goign quite well so far for 2010 probly next month ill have a couple of more days out as this month we've just not had the weather for it so come on feb be nice weather wise

have a goodun and stay safe as theres still madduns around

stange dream

last night i had a very strange dream, the dream was set back 2 years ago i'd not long moved back upto nottingham and i'd started seeing this girl who ive know for a while but in real life we were only friends, we also have a friend in real life we both know but in the dream he was a oompa loompa and the dream was a real live everyday kinda situation, but every so often the oompa loompa kepted croping up as for one situation in the dream the girlfriend was showing my dad how to do someting on the computer and all of a sudden we could here the oompa loompa song and up behind the monitor he apeared the loompa song ended and he went away

one other situation in the dream was me and the girlfriend was going camping we were driving down the motorway and again the oompa song started and where the bonet the ommpa apeared singing the song and as soon as the song ended he went, the dream has played on my mind most the day as it was very weired

the dream was well strange as ive not had any wired dreams for quite a while ah well hoping for a normal nites sleep this evening

happy as punch

the last couple of years its been a bit of a roller coaster ive come full circle and i can say iam quite content with life at the moment yeah i could do with a little more money but iam quite happy, iam in a full time job which are hard to come by in these hard times iam also in kinda my own home no parents or sister nagging me and i have a nice sexy girlfriend who i say iam realy happy with, life at the moment is quite good

like i say i could do with a bit more money as i had a bit expensive december which has kinda wiped me out money wise, but pay day is soon i have enough food in the house to last me till payday and if i cant go out and what ever i dont mind as i know all my bills are payed and got no worries, and with me being a rather good cook i can russle up a good meal and enjoy a bit of telly

iam at the moment planning a holiday at the end of april with my girlfiend thinking we going to portagul for a week all inclusive so we'll not have to fuss about eating out all the time ive done that and its a pain in the arse least with all inclusive all you have to do is go downstairt to the resturant and tuck in, theres always loads of choice and ive not had a problem with the food unlike i have had wih going selfcatering, so iam quite looking forward to april and spending some time with my girlfirend

anyway hope your all having a good friday eve and stay safe out there

still amazing me

we have now had this bad weather for nearly 4 weeks now iam okay with it yeah it is a pain in the arse espcily on my road as its been iced up and very slippery for the last 3 weeks now yesterday wheni went up the road to the shops i could hardly walk without nearly ending up on my arse, i got a little thurther up the road and this little old lady was having trouble i saw her about to fall so i rushed over to her and stoped her from falling,

i hope the council start doing something about the side road sooner rather than later as they'll be lots more people going to a&e with broken or cracked arms and what ever, i was listening to bbc radio nottingham this morning and was in one way funny and another way i was bemused that people are still not coping with the icey roads and what ever

yeah i can understand people in the 1st week not being used to the bad weather but we have had it for nearly 4 weeks now surely people understand that they need to plan a lot more time and slow the FUCK down why do drivers still want to roam arond at 100 mph when you surely cant, and people wonder why theres accidents on our roads

and also people are still panic buying theres no need iam all sorted food wise i could russle up a meal no problems but a lot of todays people just done seem able to manage to plan there meals and use there head iam waiting for summer as ill not be hearing how cold it will be but god its hot aint it

have a goodun and stay safe as its still mad out there

new year new start

hope everyones new year is going okay mine is okay so far, slight changes to my life style are goign kinda okay the drinking is amost not there so far this year ive had 2 halfs a larger and this year ive had a vodka and vimto, so not bad at all i think,

but one of the things iam totaly failing on is getting up this morning i set my alarm at 6am i went to sleep almost as soon as me head hit the pillow but i dont think i even heard my alarm as i didnt wake up untill half 9 and didnt get up untill 10am, was quite pissed off but i think this getting up and getting my body clock sorted will be a hard job to sort,

but everything else is going okay the weight i gained over crimbo is goign down quite quickly stillnot doing as much cycling as i like to as of the weather but iam going to the gym more, the eating is kinda sorted ive been treating myself to 1 supper a week i know its only been 2 weeks since ive started this new routine but still needs work

the drinking thats going okay i guess, since new years eve ive only gone to the pub once which ive had 2 halfs a larger and this evening ive had a vodka and vimto as i want to finish my bottle of vodka off as it will be there for another few months if i dont finish it off this evening, so skytower theres your answer to your facebook comment lol

on another note iam watching this program on telly 10 years younger while iam writing this post its about this woman stylist who go to other women who have let themselfs go and transform them and try and make them 10 years younger or at least a bit younger, ive watched a couple of them and they do make a big difference to some of these womens lifes but this eve's one the woman tonight she has over a 100 pairs of shoes bluddy hell i only own 2 pairs of shoes lol one pair of shoes for work and best and a pair of trainers, i tell a lie i own 2 pairs of trainers one for best and one for doing odd jobs aroundthe house and what ever and a pair of steel toecaps and some walking boots so theres 5 pairs of shoes but even tho not the best realy to say ive only got 2 pairs of shoes of which i can go out in

anyway iam off for a soak and finish this quarter of bottle of vodka off have a goodun and stay safe as its a bit icey out there

the gym and 1st day back at work

today is my 1st day back towork after 3 weeks off as ive been off work for 3 weeks and hardly done anything at all as in gym or cycling i was suprised that i only put 3 lbs in weight on, but saying that ive not realy gone over the top with eating or drinking so i wasnt expecting a big weight gain anyway my main concern was my fittness level

so i went to the gym today as its open again as its works gym and with the uni being closed the gym was closed but it was open last week when the uni opened but i was off work fighting a cold and i wasnt up for much at all so i stopped in and kepted warm well i went ot the gym during my dinner break and was suprised that i hadnt lost any of my fitness

infact i was realy suprised goodness knows how i managed it maybe it was playfighting with my girlfriend or whatever but iam pleased wiht the fact ive not lost any of my fitness, now its the case of getting my routine sorted as in going to bed and getting up and being active as i want to get up at 6am most mornings and get out for a hour for a walk / run along with my gym work, the problem ive been having for the last couple of months is not the waking up is the getting out of bed

i wake up around 6am most morings i say 10 more mins and find out when i wake up again i have had another 2 - 3 hours sleep and its 9am, but the last couplel of days i have been making a effort in trying to get up ive been getting up at 8am better but iam sure i can do better and make the most of my morning

and with it being my 1st day back at work after a 3 week break from work i was suprised to find the lake still frozen over in most places its been like this since and before i broke up from work 23rd december, ive not missed much by the sounds of things and life is returning to the uni after the crimbo break

and talking of which i best get some work done tme to kick some students out and lock some buildings up

back to work

my 3 week break has gone quite well got lots done including plently of time on the sofa watching the telly or on me xbox, even tho ive enjoyed my time off work iam ready to go back tomorrow goingto be intresting to see how the uni copes with this weather it seems to be business as normal at work we shall see,

while i was off one of my jobs was to sort me music out and get it in some kind of order, as i now normaly play it on the pc i find it easyer to sort and store the storing bit has been okay but the sorting hasnt ive let that go a bit, so ive redownloaded a bit of my collection and added a bit more i have reloaded my music libary on my winamp player and now its saying i have 25,000 mp3's which is quite a lot i have also been making some play lists up so i can play a certain kind of music or have music playing from one artist or a mix of everything,

also i have been making a album list up as iam getting quite a lot of music now i need to know what i have got that is a work in progress and before you ask i have backed all my music up onto dvd's so if my pc crashes ive still got my music collection unlike before i lost 15,000 mp3's they were all sorted and play lists made and i did cry but iam back to where i was and better iam being geeky here but i have also backed my playlists up as well

ill try and go out for a walk this afternoon as ive not been out the house since friday evening as ive been trying to fight off a cold and iam starting to feel a bit of a hermit think returning to work is going to be a shock to the system, it still makes me laugh how the uk cant cope with a bit of snow it realy dose it only needs to snow like it is doing now for a good few hours in the evening and we will be bolloxed again for a couple of days

anyway enough of me going on stay warm and be carefull out there i know iam

the weather

hasnt this new year gone off with a bang cold snowy weather but the whole of the uk seems to go to a standstill when we ever seem to have a couple of inches of snow, but when we do have some snow why do we always come to a standstill and people go crazy on the roads, i understand its totaly different driving in the snow so why dont people use a bit of common sence and drive a bit slower and not bother going out unless realy nessercery

since ive been off work i broke up on the 24th of december i think ive only been out in my car 4 times, and 3 of those times it was hard work as conditions were quite bad but a lot of people still wanted to drive around at a 100mph, not me i go round very carefully so i dont end up like so many others crashing iam back at work monday 11th of jan i might even cycle to work i dont mind the cold as such i just have to be extra carefull

i think the news have been making a big issue over the weather yes it is bad but a lotof the main roads in nottingham are okay, its just the side roads which are a problem all people need to do is take a bit more time in there journeys thats all and also be prepaird as in take a shovel so if you do end up in a bit of trouble you can dig yourself out,

problem with people these days is they rush around wanting everything done yesterday but its not always possible everyone needs to chill a bit and think and think of others for once, and i say once a gain slow down a bit and why oh why are people going mad at the shops stocking up i can understand people stocking up in remote areas but city's and towns theres no need i do have a bit more bread and cobs in the freezer than i normaly do only cos i dont realy want to be out but ive not gone overboard like some of them are doing

by the looks of things we got this cold spell for a while so come on people stop acting the twat use your common sence ??????????

have a goodun you lot

new year cold start

I was ment to have done this post a couple of days ago but happy new year all hope everyone has all recovered i wasnt to bad new years day a little tired maybe but nothing major tho, at this time of year people are on about making resoultions and what ever, iam not bothering this year as like me many people fail but this year iam making a couple of little changes to my life style



one is to kinda stop drinking i will only now have a beer on special occations like when i meet dinners for a beer or 2 which looks like its going to be end of the month, but one reason iam doing this is cos i now dont drink as much as i used to, i used to go out for a drink 5 to 6 times a week, and yes iam was a big drinker i could sink 6 pints a night no problems and at weekends anything upto and over 10 but over the last 2 years i realy have cut it right down i go out once a week maybe twice and when i do go for a pint these days i wake up feeling crap and most the next day is all but wasted while iam recovering,



and before anyone sugests trying hangover cures or what ever ive tryed and nothing seems to work, like i say iam not totaly quitting having a beer but will only drink once and a while i did stop drinking once before i did it for 8 months, but i did start again, drinking these days for me isnt just to get drunk like it once was its more a socail thing see me mates at the pub for a hour or 2 catch up with what me mates have done during the week gamer of pool and a laugh and take the piss out of each other if the ocation arises



plus this year i want to lose that final bit of weight so a tweak here and there to my diet nothing drasic but needs to be done, and also try and get my sleepig pattern sorted as its realy crap at the mo, iam finding iam waking up when i want but the getting out of bed is the hard bit, i normaly say 10 more mins and when i next wake up ive had another hour or 2 in bed so hopefully i can sort that our think ive found a way to get me out of bed just move my alarm clock to the other side of the room so i have to get out of bed to turn it off rather than just extend my arm out lets see hey


hope your all keeping warm and safe as its a bit mad out there